Psalm 139:1-3
“O LORD, you have searched me and know me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.”
That God knows me more deeply than I know my self is at first potentially discomforting in the sheer mystery of such a truth. This quickly fades into a place of peace with God’s grace as He delves into the depths of what it means to have Him know every minute detail of my entire being.
I get lost in “I”. What I mean is that I do not truly know myself as deeply and beneficially as I may at first assume. If I know myself so well, why do I have so many questions about myself? Why do I not understand my feelings, thoughts, actions, and words so often? How could it be that I lack the ability to make even the most simple personal decisions?
It is not “I” who knows I best, it is God. He knows me in the depths of having formed and breathed life into me. He has never missed a second of my growth in life. He will forever know my every thought, whether it be thoughts of where I will go to eat or how I might best turn a fellow brother from sin to a life of love for God. He knows me. God knows every dark crevasse, uncharted territory, known plain, and the very state of my soul in its entirety.
Knowing the Father’s love for me as His child, seeing God’s love acted out in the perfect life, death, and resurrection of Jesus, and resting in the constant comfort and guidance of the Spirit is made that much more blessed to me in being aware of God’s complete knowledge of all things. This rich and full knowledge thus includes me. One out of the vast number of people who have ever lived in His creation, and yet He knows me.
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